25 June
Think it;
Want it;
Dream it.
andy
ben
ilyana
joshua
JQ
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Hangover?!!?! Like seriously?! Oh cmon! You’ve gotta be kidding. Cook up a story or sth but at least give me a better reason? Hangover… Can I just slap you instead? Yesterday when you took a million years to reply my smses, I thought you were just thinking about what I said. More like you were too busy hving fun eh? All along I was just too naive. Too naive to believe that you wanted to salvage this relationship, too naive to believe that you want to do something for us. I really did believe you. I really believed that you wanted to try. I thought perhaps we really could go back to what we used to be. Fool. I want to believe what you said. But your actions proved otherwise.
Whatever happened to the “我每天陪你走”? I thought you were sincere about apologizing, but hell I was wrong. You just went back to doing whatever you wanted to without sparing a thought for my feelings. I guess I lost the first place in your heart. Maybe I’ve never been there. Why am I keeping this together when you’re breaking me apart?
Don’t make promises you can’t fulfil. Don’t give me hope, when you’re gna disappoint me. Don’t tell me yes, when your heart says no.
Is pride really that important? Do you really have to do what your friends tell you to? At the end of the day, you live for yourself and you only have yourself to account to. Why bother about what others think?
You’re the best next to me, but it’s a different story when they’re around.
i can’t get up;
clarice
[♥ clarice] danced at 11:14 PM
No I did not go to China.
Went home straight after church today. Meeting up with some ninjas to lomo. Amine arrived outside my house at 12pm, which was one hour late. Headed over to Turf City to meet JQ and shipei. The sun was scotching, sweat like nobody’s business. Jy joined us shortly after. The weather had stupid mood swings and soon it was raining cats and dogs. Sucks. Had to wait for the rain to stop before we could get onto the lorry and move on.
Finally the rain stopped.
Next, we went to Marina (again) to catch a movie. They wanted to watch Green Zone, so yeah whatever goes. Guess I was right, it was a boring movie. Movie ended, walked around to lomo a lil bit more, and then was sent back to eunos on the lorry. Super long never lomo alrdy, awesomeee (: !
Idk why I have such a big issue with smokers, but yeah, I just do. Fuck smokers. If you can’t accept it, then don’t. Right? Why bother trying? Honestly, the fact that you smoke pisses me off. Don’t try to tell me about quitting anymore, because I’m not gna buy that. From the way I see it, somewhere deep inside, you just don’t want to. Game over, no explanations needed. No leeway for excuses. Period.
I don’t want to, stay another minute. I don’t want you, to say a single word.
hush hush;
clarice
[♥ clarice] danced at 12:14 AM
Just got home from another day at work and work week ended. Surprisingly fast. Got off work early today. 6.30pm and leon was chasing us away alrdy saying he could handle the last batch himself. Yes I’ll comply bcos of the fact that I’m fucking hungry. Stupid cup noodles for lunch. Anw, still had to wait for the rest to end work cuz we were gna catch a movie.
Not all wanted to go, so we ended up with sean, joel, jun qi, suzana and myself. Movie? How to train your dragon in 3D. Cool, just what I wanted. Decided on Marina as tht was the only place with the most available seats. Booked tickets then headed to the foodcourt for dinner. I’m broke. Movie was $14. That’s it. Home cooked food to office next week.
The movie was awesome. Graphics and all were cool with a nice storyline. Toothless is sooo cute with it’s big eyes! ♥ Was quite worth it as it lasted almost 2 hours, but the seat suck cos it was too near the screen. Neck cramp, damn. Overall, four out of five stars.
After movie, wanted to take the bus home but everyone kept asking me to take the MRT. Ohwell. Good thing it wasn’t raining when I reached eunos.
Received results at 8am in the morning today. Got me into a good mood as I improved from last sem. My Jap actually got A, I thought I made a lot of mistakes. HAHA. Someone’s off to genting todayyy, I’ll be waiting for my ribbon to put it on a giraffee ;D
To be one’s self and unafraid of whether right or wrong, is more admirable than the easy cowardice of surrender to conformity.
with ♥;
clarice
[♥ clarice] danced at 12:31 AM
Thursday, March 18, 2010
I just realised I haven’t blogged this whole week. Been too caught up with work? Knock off time has apparently been extended from 6 to 7plus because the last batch will be done at 7 now. Sian 1/2.
Have been working OT/coming home late for the past few days. Dinner with colleagues at bedok yesterday. Awesome [: Tmr is friday! Time really flies when your life is a stupid routine. But, I’m loving it. Except for the reports though.
Work is burning a hole in my wallet. Lunch is expensive, taking a shuttle bus is dangerous. One lunch and $10 gone. If this goes on, I’m gna spend my whole salary on lunch. Cup noodles in the pantry tmr. Pathetic.
Someone seems to be avoiding or rather living in self denial. At least to me, it feels that way. I might be wrong. Not knowing how to solve a problem, do we all just run away? The problem ain’t gna solve itself. I can continue to put up a facade, but what’s the point?
I lost trust in you. Do it all over again.
the lost world;
clarice
[♥ clarice] danced at 11:47 PM
Today was mostly spent alone. Shirlyn skipped church today. Headed over to Bugis after church to walk around. The weather is becoming more and more like my home down there eh.
Went home for lunch and thereafter planted myself on the sofa for Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief. Not a bad show, but wasn’t as nice as I expected. Fell asleep on the sofa after the movie till 6.30pm. Don’t know why I’m so tired. No matter how much I sleep, it never seems to be enough larhhhhhh. Blah. As usual, it was family dinner. Today’s menu was Taiwan porridge somewhere near home. I don’t find it nice honestly.
Oh well.
According to Einstein, the only reason for time is so that everything doesn’t happen at once. If there’s no such thing as time and everything happens at once, chaos? Work starts again tomorrow. Oh yay. It’s only a week and I’m sick of the food there? The only nice thing would be the 20cents water breaks. I’m gna get diabetes soon.
Never take counsel of your fears.
pursue dreams;
clarice
[♥ clarice] danced at 9:48 PM
Yesterday was a crazy night out. But it was awesome. (: Was supposed to go clubbing but everyone can’t/didn’t want to go. After much discussion here and there, I conclusively decided to head to the west side to find Andy. I can’t believe he actually psycho-ed me into this DATE.
Our initial plan: West Coast Park to star gaze on pyramid
This was what happened:
Met up at JE MRT and by the time there were no buses alrdy. So we had to walk to WCP. Andy said, it was an one hour walk away. WTF. Firstly, I followed him back home to get beer. After mentioning about something with wheels, he came up with this crazy idea to steal a trolley from Giant and push it to WCP. Coolest la, felt so damn paiseh sitting in the trolley. All the cars driving past were like staring at us. But the whole trip was superfun (: And I’m a no license driver. Heh heh heh. Stopped by some reservoir to look at mini jurong islands and FIRE. And then there was the catnip/cotton plant/ohwhatabrilliantgift. Muahahaha. Here kittykittykitty, tsk tsk tsk. Laughoutloud.
Eternity passed and we finally reached our destination. Like, finally. Climbed onto the pyramid (and forget about star gazing because ohlookattheclouds) and sat there chilling out and talking crap with our beers. Then we walked around WCP looking for nice places to sit, battling with UFIs, chasing ghosts, sharing stories and whatnot. Time seems to fly and soon it was daybreak. By that time I was alrdy dying of fatigue.
Got out of WCP and went to some market (which was 20mins walk away) for breakfast. The building doesn’t seem to get any nearer……… Hahaha. Andy said I’ve got to eat something light since my stomach hurts so he bought porridge for me. Quite tasty leh. And left handers are weird! LOL.
今天的 DATE 就到此为止。
Took a bus home to sleep. Today is rot-at-home day. Well, I needed it.
its such crazy things that makes life, life;
clarice
[♥ clarice] danced at 7:48 PM
Work ended at 8 today! Sianz. Was practically wasting time in the afternoon doing nothing, and then work had to come in when it was time to knock off. After re-sorting that huge stack of papers, we finally got to leave. Fortunately we were in time for the 8pm shuttle bus.
Made a futile trip to Bugis. Hate taking the MRT but there wasn’t any buses from Tamp interchange. Joel said there was 12, then in the end tell me 12 at his house there. ._. Nicee. So we took a bus and he brought me to the 12 bus stop. THANKS. But bugis was like freaking far away. By the time I reached there too late alrdy. And I was STARVING. Took a fcuking bus home.
Don’t have much appetite for dinner nowadays. It’s past my sleep time. I ought to be in dreamland. At least I don’t need to report for work at 8am. ;P Heh heh. Tomorrow is dressdown day :D
Good nightz world.
so damn accurate;
clarice
[♥ clarice] danced at 12:24 AM
Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I’m homeeeee. Shagged. Today finally had more things to do at work. Knocked off at 6.30pm and was about to go home when keLvin asked me to go chalet. Was kinda reluctant at first cos I was like so fucking tired and sian-ed. But then again, work doesn’t mean no life! Work means MORE night life! (x Since I was offered a bike ride there and home, I agreed.
The chalet like so ulu, aloha loyang. Went there to eat his BBQ food! My dinner consisted of these items: hotdog, fishball, chickenwing, sweet potato (or banana?) and ONE prawn. Chickenwing no taste (it was boiled?!), sweet potato like banana, crabstick taste weird (that’s why all was fed to kelvin). Okay I should stop complaining since I didn’t have to get my hands dirty anyway. HEH HEH. THANKS ARH. ;)
After food, went to watch/play mahjong with his friends for awhile. Was sent home after that. Yawns.
OH. My grandaunt was always looking and hunting for places to watch aeroplanes. Apparently my work place has a perfect view of planes taking off and landing. I must visit the rooftop someday. Think I’m starting to get used to this life. New people, new faces, new routines, new life. It is kinda fun actually. I hope it will still be when all the work comes in. Ah, 10 weeks later when NYP interns are gone.
I MISS CCA. :( Noooo.
i love work man;
clarice
P.S. I ♥ my new necklace! <3!
[♥ clarice] danced at 11:43 PM
Clarice is being a bitch. But so what?
It’s the same thing again. The clarice that you know, is the one with four walls. How about me without the walls? You never knew what to expect.
Need some time apart? Yeah, I think that’s because I don’t want to go crazy further in front of you. Under any circumstances, Clarice hates to be left alone, don’t you know that? What irony. Women are like that, and sadly I’m one of them.
After serious thinking, I thought I’d talk to you to make things right. After being left alone for one day, I decided otherwise. So, when things are left dangling there unsaid, and you leave tomorrow, and come back one week later. Escalates, snowballs, and then perhaps I’d be gone like the wind. You can try. (: Unless you can foretell the future.
My dearest algean, goodbye ♥
Until then.
i know sorries means nothing;
clarice
[♥ clarice] danced at 11:32 PM
Monday, March 8, 2010
Life as an intern – DAY 1
First day at work was pretty much relaxed and monotonous. There wasn’t much to do since we don’t have our computers and passwords yet. I guess it’s all about handling documents. Learnt a few things today, seemed quite complicated. I think this isn’t gna be easy. Hope I’ll get the hang of it soon.
Now that work has started, my fun and leisure plotted against time will take on a downward trend. I’d be only left with Saturdays to do my own stuff. Now looking on the bright side, I’m gna be paid nine fifty a month. Sooo, yay. :D
I really hope I’ll gain a lot out of this. Six months ain’t gna be an easy ride, but I hope it’ll be a fulfilling one. At least this will give me a peek at what my future will be like.
Spring passes and one remembers one’s innocence. Summer passes and one remembers one’s exuberance. Autumn passes and one remembers one’s reverence. Winter passes and one remembers one’s perseverance.
positive;
clarice
[♥ clarice] danced at 10:22 PM
Okay, last night was totally wasted. Fuck. My last night. Bloody hell. I think I’m getting too emotional. Seriously, fuck it. Self-control, please.
Sometimes I wonder why do people step over the limit on purpose and then regret it afterwards. Temptation? Many don’t think of the consequences their actions will cause. Since it’s irreversible, no matter what is done to make amends is no use. You can’t turn back time and change the fact that you’ve erred.
I hate smokers. Honestly, it still bothers me. Maybe they’re right. It’s only smoking, what’s the big deal? I hear that all the time. Just let him be.. it’s just a small issue.. Minor thing to you, not to me. I hate it when you choose to smoke and then push the blame to everything around you. Smoking is a choice and since you yourself chose to smoke, don’t take it out on people around you. You very well know that smoking is not gna solve anything and it’s nothing but a bad habit of yours.
That is only human. I’m one of them too.
cross the line;
clarice
[♥ clarice] danced at 9:17 PM