25 June
Think it;
Want it;
Dream it.
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Fuck up day. Period.
Now I know, this is how you come and go.
All those times, it felt so right yet so surreal.
It’s just me now, left in the cold.
Endless nights, cigarette lights.
Disheartened at the sight.
这次我走开 再没有话要说出来
我不想再期待走下去 还能多精彩
我不了解你怎能心安
也抓不住你的倔强
可是我知道你 你为什么说谎
你说你还在 一分一秒也没走开
我想留在这里 可是这一切已太晚
我不能再像从前一样
为我们的明天疯狂
你不必解释 你为什么说谎
你不能说我没有爱过 说我没等过难过
我也想说 也许能重来我却还是沉默
你一直问我的心到底在不在
问我怎能不遗憾就丢失了爱
而我的泪 怎么就流下来
dont make the same fucking mistake again;
clarice
[♥ clarice] danced at 12:11 AM
A student asked his teacher, "What is love?"
The teacher said, "to get an answer to your
question, go to the wheat field, get the biggest
wheat grain, and come back."
But the rule is - you can go through the field
only once and cannot turn back to pick."
The student went to the field, gone through the
first row, and saw one big wheat grain. But he
wondered....may be there is a bigger one else
where.
Then he saw a bigger one. But may be there is a
still bigger one waiting....
Later, when he finished more than half of the
wheat field, he realized that the wheat grains
there are not as big as the previous one. He
realized that he has missed the biggest one.
So, he ended up the search and went back empty
handed. The teacher told him, "That is love! If you
keep looking for a better one, you could have
missed the right person!"
Love is cherishing what you have now before it’s too late.
♥♥♥♥
[♥ clarice] danced at 12:50 AM
I’m starting to feel my legs again. After 3 hours of running around. It’s been so long since I’ve ran this much.
Friday, 23rd April 2010
Escaped from work at 9.30pm today, rushed down just in time to see the shuttle bus leave. =.= As algean was waiting at TM, decided to chiong cab down instead since there was an empty cab. Headed over to PH to get our entry before getting alcohol. Shared a bottle of martell, didn’t really get very high. The effect wore off so quickly. ._. As usual. After drink, club, go home.
Now, don’t tell me you want me back.
Saturday, 24th April 2010
Woke up surprising early today, at 12plus. Usually will spend the whole day sleeping if the previous night was spent clubbing. Lunched at home, then went over to Bugis before going to plazasg to meet the bunnaye. He defeated the purpose of going to town, and ended up spending more than 1 hour searching for food. Finally settled down at billybombers, marina square. (cathay no billybombers arh?)
Took a bus back to JE, was alrdy feeling damn tired and spaced out. Bought some things at giant, then floated to his house. Suddenly see got bed, felt like sleeping alrdy. His bed also got glue, I think everyone’s bed also have ah. Someone had a hard time getting me to bathe. Ha ha. Felt even sleepier after the mushroom soup, and by that time it was gna be 3am soon.
Had to wake up and 6am to wake him up and that’s what I’m here for.
Sunday, 25th April 2010
IPOS the original race. SCAA-LYWEWIN. Very original team name right? ;D
The race journey
Started at Bugis, National library. Flagged off at 9plus and everyone started chionging. There were 5 stations to complete in 3 hours. 1st station, Toa Payoh library. Played a stupid game of taboo which almost got me stuck on “infringment”. Next stop – Sim Lim Square. Yes, back to Bugis. =.= Had 2 obstacles to clear. Differentiate btwn the authentic and fake microsoft cd, look for 4 shops which was GSA certified or sth like that. And then, we were off to Victoria Concert Hall, Raffles Place! Take MRT, scan ezlink card like free. This was the best la. We had to assemble cut up lyrics and guess the song title & artist. Wth, if we don’t know the song how in the world are we supposed to guess the title even if we manage to get the lyrics right? While we were busy unscrambling words at the table, seth was busy pushing buttons on his iphone. Got the title in no time. (usage of internet wasn’t allowed) Who cares? 4th stop was opposite Marriot hotel, Orchard. Ran like crazy through the crowds. Fixed a 50piece puzzle of a movie poster and we’re done for that stop. Final destination? WOODLANDS. ._. Finally got a chance to catch our breath in the MRT to woodlands. Did a quiz at the finishing point and the race ended. Refreshments were provided, ate balls and emptied countless cups of juice. Prize presentation. Okay, we weren’t the top 5 groups but me and andy actually won 2 out of the 5 lucky draw prizes. Zhun bo?
I lovelovelove long bus rides. ♥
I guess that sums up my weekend. I want to be on MC tomorrow. Damn.
a whole new world;
clarice
[♥ clarice] danced at 12:46 AM
You’re a carousel, you’re a wishing well.
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You’re a mystery, you’re from outer space.
You’re every minute of my everyday.
living in lies;
clarice
[♥ clarice] danced at 12:01 AM
Today was a horrible day. So was my weekend. I ended work at 11pm today, didn’t have a single break in between, and was stuck to VRTs the entire day. Not to mention that splitting headache I’ve got and, a broken heart. Just let me complain.
My weekend sucked. Wanted to accomplish so many things that weekend but my mood was just totally ruined. Spent saturday night clubbing, or rather drinking away. PH as usual was so fucking pack everyone was squeezed like sardines. Hung around tables the whole time, downing cups of hard liquor neat. That was probably why I vomited. I guess my aim was just to get drunk. On a side note, I should stop drowning my sorrows in alcohol. Embarrassed myself in front of everyone after clubbing ended. Being a little tipsy, I just broke down. Cried like nobody’s business by the side of the road. Thank you to everyone (whether I know you or not) who comforted me, greatly appreciated.
Sunday – hangover. Felt like crap the whole day. Vomited almost everything I ate and the headache won’t go away. Struggled to bring my baby to the vet and all that. It was crazy. Can die.
Yeah, so that was my lousy weekend.
Come on man clarice. You’ve got to be strong right? I know, no matter how gracious we appear to be, somewhere deep inside there’s still hate and anger. If not we wouldn’t be in this sorry state right now. I’m a failure at love. I should have known better not to get involved with it. You just left so abruptly, with so many things left unsaid. But since you’ve made up your mind to leave, I won’t stop you. Although I still love you, although I’m still standing here, but I’m not gna chase after you. The day you made the decision to turn your back on me, you’ve alrdy destroyed all that’s left btwn us. Thank you, for leaving me behind. You deserve someone better anw. So go. Don’t ever look back at me again. Don’t have to tell me you still care, because I’m all alone now. I have to get back on my feet alone, I have to walk this path alone.
My mind keeps wandering down the memory lane for the past few days, I should just stop thinking about you. All these wonderful memories, beautiful as they may be, its making me hurt like fuck. Reading all the past msges you sent me, so many broken promises and full of naive thoughts. I’ve been stupid, I thought I could make it last. I’m retiring as a girlfriend, I simply suck at it. I would continue writing, but there’d be no end to it.
你的明天有多快乐，不是我的
我们的爱是唱一半的歌
时间把习惯换了
伤口愈合
也撤销我再想你的资格。
I hate you for giving up so easily. I hate you for telling me you love me. I hate you for walking away just like that. I hate you leaving me alone. I hate you for making me cry. I hate you for making me feel this way. I miss you.
& the seventh thing, I hate the most that you do, you make me love you;
clarice
[♥ clarice] danced at 1:20 AM
Skipped work today. Feeling utterly sick. I’m sittin at home, in my f stuffy room, and I can’t on the bloody aircon.
Just realised my blogging program can actually do stuff to a picture, though not much. My CT Precisa finally got developed, after a super long time. Not very happy with the results though. The cross processing didn’t feel like much of an effect, maybe I’m snapping the wrong stuff. *shrugs*
The weather’s kinda having PMS lately. It’s so super hot now. Where did the cold rainy weather go. So freaking unpredictable. What’s happening to Earth? Back to work tmr, sians. Should have just taken two days MC, but ah there goes my money. Ohwell.
I wish I can help out in CCA Fiesta.
& attend the first training.
:( Boo.
irresistible;
clarice
[♥ clarice] danced at 11:09 PM
Sunday, April 4, 2010
I got home straight from church in order to do my report, but I’m still procrastinating.
I’m gna watch tv and have lunch, first.
damn you clarice. you need to get started.
[♥ clarice] danced at 11:35 AM
Friday was one of those ludicrous but nonetheless fantastic days to keep me going and drag me out of the monotonous work cycle.
My sleep got interrupted early in the morning as it was time for church. After breakfast, went home to change before rushing over to Haw Par Villa to catch the sun and the brilliant photography weather. Easter bunnaye was alrdy thr waiting for me. Good thing he didn’t melt in the sun.
Roamed around HPV and understood why nobody actually visits that place. There was nothing much interesting there. The only thing that caught my attention was this abandoned outdoor theatre. The place was sealed up so we had to climb in. Explore mood, ON. The sitting area was filled with overgrown plants.
Dno abandon how many years alrdy..
Paintings on the walls.
The stage.
We were done with HPV in less than 2 hours. Next stop, lunch at seah im. Headached over our next location and andy suggested mount faber.
Clarice: no im not gna walk down
Andy: okay we take bus
Clarice: really?
Andy: really take bus!
Clarice: ……
Andy: walk down!
Clarice: ……………………………
We still ended up at mount faber. Walked around abit before deciding to settle down at one of the bars at jewel box. I loved the ambience and the soft evening sky. Chilled with some beer, combination was perfect. [:
Happy hour :D
Our day ended like that, but the night is still young. Next event, clubbing at PH. Today’s menu: Shirlyn, jianyi, jianren, clinton & friends, vincent & friends. Had three alcohol sources. Couldn’t seem to get drunk from the henessy that jy opened. Managed to get high after going everywhere drinking their pure alcohol. And oops, I screamed my name at a random stranger who asked for it. Spent the last part of clubbing trying to stop people from fighting. Crazy idiots, everyone wasn’t really sober. Awesome. Plus no clubbing pictures cos no camera. Boo. Went straight to bed after I got home.
i like;
clarice
[♥ clarice] danced at 1:40 AM