I have so many things to say, so many that even I don’t know where to start.

They always say, if you loved someone, stand up and fight for your love. But this time, because I love someone, I decided to back out and watch you go.

因为爱一个人，就只想看到他开心。

That’s all I want. For you to be happy. He said he’s confused. But that just shows that that girl means something to him. He said he wants me, but does he need me? I’m jealous of that girl, because she can make him feel loved. It seems I can never really make him happy. It seems I’m causing him stress and pain. If she can give you the love you want, go ahead. Because I don’t have the confidence that I can do that. Inferior? Hahahahaha. Clarice clarice.

两个人在一起，不是光靠爱情。

I’m sorry. Sorry because I lied. Sorry because I wasn’t being truthful with you. Sorry because I didn’t tell you that I loved you. Sorry because I acted like I didn’t care and it didn’t hurt. But somehow I feel it’s better for you this way. Maybe you’re right, maybe we could never be together because we’re too alike.

There were two choices for me after I heard what you said.
1) To hold you back, to tell you that I actually love you and want to be with you.
2) To ask you to let me go and watch you leave.

And I chose the second choice. Because I thought of what would happen if we were together. I didn’t know how to love you, didn’t know how to be what you needed. I decided to let you go. And I hope she’d make you a happy person.

一个人寂寞，好比两个人寂寞。

I don’t know where to head now. It feels like I’m stuck here on this road. I’ve fallen down once again. I lost the battle against myself, I didn’t do what I wanted to. There are so many things left unsaid, so many questions in my head. But what good will it do to know the answer?

心痛比快乐更真实，爱为何这样的讽刺。

I guess it’s time to pick myself up and continue walking on. Will I have the strength to do it? I think it’s okay. I think I’m okay. To stand up myself and walk down the road alone. After all, it has always been this way, hasn’t it?

Even if I made a vow, a promise not to miss you now and try to hide the truth inside; I’d fail cause I

i just can’t live a lie;
clarice

clarice