Here’s a toast to the moments when you realise the simple things are wonderful and enough. [:

Now I’ve come to realise how stupid I’ve always been. Well it’s time to wake up. I should have seen all those signs. Feels like I’m always the last to know too. Everything he said yesterday really woke me up. It’s not the first time. I guess I should stop being stupid. I won’t stay in range for his blade to cut me anymore. Though I’m bleeding now, but I believe that these wounds will heal over time. And it’s up to myself to make it heal. If there be any prescription for my wounds, I suppose its happiness. I need to stay happy, and keep my mind off unhappy things. No more denial, I’d face whatever comes.

Differences could keep people apart, so can similarities. Since we’re both not that very normal, it’s hard. It’s like, how can you heal others when you can’t even heal yourself? Things will be better this way. Yes it will.

Learning to pick myself up again.

Went for my eye checkup today. Doctor says I’ve been wearing my lenses too much, and there are cuts on the surface of my eyes. That’s why I’ve been having blurred vision. Sigh. I’m banned from contact lenses. Damn. Must be those nights when I kept sleeping with lenses on. Argh.

After that, I went for CCA (when I very well know I shouldn’t). Yes I went for CCA despite my super blur vision and high sensitivity to light. The stupid eyedrops to dilate the pupils caused that ._. I wanted to go for CCA, I had to let it out somewhere.

Campus run killed me. My mind was in a blank, I just kept on running and running and running. Till my surroundings suddenly got so blur and the sun was blinding me. Got to spar today. Which was just what I needed. Now (I just noticed) my hand dnowtfhappened got one spot of internal bleeding and plenty of red lines. O.O wth.

Towards the end of training, shipei popped out with a cake. Oh, JQ’s birthday. So we stopped training early to eat cake :D Every cake comes with a cake fight, and I was the first to kena. –.-

Now I’m glad I went for CCA. It did keep my mind occupied for awhile. Oh I’m back to blogging boring stuff. But today’s page had nothing much.  Formal to school tmr. Sian. I feel the urge of clubbing again. It’s friday tmr. Fuck it.

Note to myself: Breathe

you do whatever you want;
clarice