That’s it. I SCREWED MY CM PAPER. Felt like the worst paper I’ve ever sat for in my life. Out of 4 questions, I could only secure ONE. Yes ONE. Wtf. And wasn’t really that secured. I just cross my fingers and hope I can manage with a C. No, please don’t fail.

I’m tired, physically, mentally. Slept for only 3 fucking hours this morning. Now I’ve gotta start worrying about IV and CFAS. Great. Just two more papers and it’s over. I’m halfway done.

I feel like a failure. Sem after sem I told myself not to let history repeat itself, but apparently sure doesn’t feel like I’ve succeeded. I probably need to sit down and think about life. Set my goals and priorities right. Plus the need for time management. Well, at least I know I won’t be studying for the next 6 months.

Talking about goals and priorities, there are still so many things on my list waiting to be done. But I just can’t seem to squeeze time out to accomplish them. Time to get get organized! And, with my attachment income, there’s no need to go nuts about the financials part.

Being sick of guys, relationships and whatnot, I’ve sort of wandered around aimlessly for the past year. Having totally lost confidence in relationships, I never really felt like being in one anymore. Then I kinda started to miss the feeling… Life is really unpredictable. I never thought I would settle down, not that soon at least. Commitment is probably one of the most important thing to sustain a relationship and that’s the whole issue. I hate making commitments.

Now I’m gna try, to bring back who I really am. Just for once. I’ll stay that way if everything is fine.

Years later, you look back at your life and ask yourself, what have you been doing? Will you answer that question with regrets, or otherwise?

hunt for my soul;
clarice