The happy memories are the ones make it hurt so much. I guess deep down inside, I’m still me. I haven’t really changed much. That is bad.

I do not know how to love, still. And I’m learning. Hoping you’d be patient with me, just as I would be patient with you. And then one day, we will make it. Perhaps that’s just me. When I set my heart and mind out to do something, I won’t stop till I achieve it. I no longer know whether I’m doing the right thing, but I choose to follow my heart and trust my intuition. My heart yearns for you to stay, and I don’t think I’m gna disagree with it. I’m still trying, still learning, still growing.

For the past few weeks, it seems that I have totally lost myself in an attempt to find back that peace and balance between us. But I was just too caught up in trying to make things right for myself, and it was doing us no good. Now that I realized there’s no point going on this way. I have to make things right for us. Can I try again?

How about the answers I’ve been trying to seek so far? I don’t know if I should persist on finding them, or just let it go and start from the beginning. All I really need, is for you to talk to me now. I hope I have the chance to.

I miss you.