Friday, June 22, 2012

Today I'm going off, the escape I wanted and needed for so long. I should be happy and excited. But somehow I don't feel as happy as I should be.

Is it me that's expecting too much? Everytime I face the, "your bf leh? He never celebrate with you? ................ Why like that one?" I try to smile and shrug it off, act all nonchalant about it. But deep down inside, it just makes me wonder, is it me, or is it you? After all the attempted explanations to my friends, they all went like, "it's okay, we celebrate for you." I'm really touched. By everyone who tried to cheer me up. Thank you.

It feels like I'm leaving with a heavy heart. But I guess this is what I need. I need to prove to myself that I'm in charge of my own happiness. This is my plan, I don't have to rely on anyone else to make me happy.

I hate this feeling. Images keep flashing through my mind. Images of what could have been. Images that I yearn for. Because deep down inside, I still wish it was you. Deep down inside, I still wish you would be here.
[♥ clarice] danced at 2:27 AM